Thursday, June 21, 2007

Back from "The Land of Angels"

I'm back!!!

N oh boy! I m soooooooooo happy i'm back! I swear i'll nvr get out of the country anymore! (Yeah rite! everyone else said the same ting to me - "yeah rite kin! i ajak u g kl g jakarta mesti u kata ok nyer!" - ok2...admit a bit of exaggeration...bt i do feel like i dun ever wanna go out of the country ok!)

back to the point!

it's nt dat i hate the country or the place, deep down i dun even tink it's anything to do wif the holiday or the country... it was juz dat i din have any mood like at all. i mean... at this point i haf ppl telling me "KIN U R DEF CRAZY TO NOT NJOY N LIKE BANGKOK!" point taken. i mean, really, i cnt will to haf fun n njoy n haf mood rite. i mean it's nt dat i was sad, emo n wanting to go back all the time..;. it was juz dat if sumbody ask me "hey kin, how's bangkok?", i'll say " it was okkkkkkkkkkkk lah..." get wat i mean?

surprising rite? i mean how cn i say okkkklah... its nt dat i juz say it... i meant it...for someone who is almost a shopaholic...n definitely n impulse shopaholic wen overseas, i tink sumting went wrong sumwhere.

granted, i din feel anything abt going bangkok, n i m a bangkok virgin plus an impulse overseas shopaholic (wateva dat mean), so i tot, maybe, juz maybe, i will feel all the excitement once i'm there. bt no... the only tingling exciting sensation i had was wen i was on the plane about to take off... maybe excited, maybe scared... coz i m nt a flying person... i m more of the bus person.

once i'm there, by the end of day 1, i wanted to go home! by end of day 3, i cried to sleep coz i wanted to be back home!by day 4, i cant wait to go home, n wen i finally landed, i m soooooooooooooo happy to be back home! trus happy n excited n wen citer kat asy n dani pun mcm hepi (i bet they were tinking "eh2 si budak ni kata tk suka bangkok tp biler crite hepi semacam jer..." - bt dat was bcoz i'm home!) n you noe wat, the moment i touch on spore ground (actually it was the airport ground), i had to at least physically touched it! (coz i really wanted to kiss the ground ala2 sujud syukur bt i tink the other 3 ladies wld freak out or sumting. i tink i will freak out.) n wen i reach home, i kissed my floor! TAKE THAT!

i ges i noe y.... my body may be in bangkok, bt my mind is in singapore. DUN ASK ME Y! everybody asked me y! I DUNNO Y! I DUN EVEN NOE WAT I M TINKING BACK IN SPORE!

bt maybe this is my part of soul searching... it's good dat i did this n feel this... coz now i feel more clear of my future intentions (rmbr plan B?) maybe it's juz dat for the first time i feel even more lonely than ever... maybe for the first time i feel how it will be like wen plan B is executed. (ok... now i noe i may nt really like plan B bt wat the heck, its nt like i cn do anything abt it rite n plus life isnt abt your likes n dislikes, its abt moving on even wen you dislike it... i may nt be making any sense rite now coz i m still on bimbo mode) maybe the trip was ruined from the start.

1) maybe i was dumbfounded to find that nobody will be sending me off! (granted it was too early in the morning n sum ppl nid to sleep, sum ppl nid to werk, sum ppl juz dun nid to send me, sum ppl tink its ok coz i'm always out of the country anyway (says who! KL N BATAM do not count ok!!!!)... bt DUN I MATTER ANYMORE?????? i ges i dun....

2) so like a tru classic movie, you see this gerl packing up her bag at nite, preparing to leave, n in the wee hours, she took her luggage n left, hail a taxi, alone, took a ride to the airport, alone, waving to her mum, who's the only one who woke up to say gdbye (bt she did nid to wake up to go werk, so i dunno if dat counts...hmm...), n sit quietly in the cab, alone, tinking... wat did she become to..? this is how it is in the end... this is how it felt like in the end... LONELY...
bt of coz like a typical me, she kept feeling2 like this is it. this is plan B. oh boy! plan b is sooo sad. n of coz from the nite before, the gerl kept singing ...

" All my bags are packed, i'm ready to go, i standing here outside your door, i hate to wake you up to say goodbye. bt the dawn's breaking it's early morn, the taxi's waiting it's blowing its horn, i'm ready, i'm so lonesome i could die. so kiss me n smile for me, tell me dat you'll wait for me, hold me like u'll nvr let me go, coz i'm leaving on a jet plane, dunno we i'll be back sgain.."

n oh yeah... werent the girl so lonesome, she could die....

3) then there was the almost here n the almost no proper communication phase. how i feel that we drifted away, that i feel even more alone, n dat we cld nvr be it. haha! we hav juz been replaced gerls! we have been replaced!

4) then there were the dogsssssssssssssssssssss

5) then there were the porks n ham ham n the no chicken-food-coz-its-bangkok-n-mite-get-bird-flu-n-i-dun-intend-to-die-of-bird-flu!n i cnt even melantak the hotel breakfast!

6) n i kip dreaming of stupid2 stuffs wen i'm there. stuffs n ppl in spore. ges dat's y my mind is in spore all the time! (aku ni dh kena buatan org ke? heheheheheheh ;p)

7) n den of coz the no sending so no fetching thing. luckily asy n her beau came to fetch me n for that dani scored 20 points!!!!!!!!

enuff said.

to the good points next.

met mariam - kaka shima's fren. she is sooooooooooooo farni.... i tink she made the trip a blast. muka exactly like negro bt bebual melayu abis! even more melayu then nad! hahahahah! she is so funni by the time that the trip is ending... i look at her she look at me den we laf! dunno y! hahah i tink i will miss that gerl! n oh yes, miss her boobs too! hahahah! n yes, will miss kak shima's boobs too!

it's a shopping haven. it cld have been a shopping heaven for me if they had more of my size! discriminatiors! bt i love the earrings! bought 13 pairs for 60baht! (i tink the gerl wrongly counted or she juz wanted to make me happy) wic is like 20cents per pair!

lurve the mango juice!!!! i cn still taste it!

we went to patpong rd. for all you innocent creatures out there ( n for those who eksyen/step innocent) its whr the THAI GIRL SHOW is at. so yeah figure it out. not so difficult rite. THE FOUR GORGEOUS LADIES WENT TO PATPONG ROAD TO WATCH THAI GIRL SHOW!

let me tell you how was it in a single sentence.

IT IS FUCKING AMAZING WAT A VAGINA CLD DO!

another sentence?

IT IS FUCKING RIDICULOUS WAT FEMALE SPECIES WLD DO FOR ENTERTAINMENT AND MONEY!

yet another sentence...

IT IS FUCKING SICK AND SADISTIC THAT MEN, YES MEN, AS IN MALE SPECIES, THE ONE WIF TWO HEADS BT NO BRAINS, THE ONES WHO CNT KIP THEIR DICK IN THEIR PANTS ACTUALLY ENJOYS AND GET TURNED ON WATCHING IT!

i rest my case.

lemme tell you in detail how it wen. from the start, pre-bangkok trip, i oready told nadleen i din want to club at bangkok (coz i noe that we r a bunch of clubbers!) n dat i dun really want to watch the thai girl show. this is mainly bcoz of the feedback i get frm every1 who went, esp my sis. they said it was nuting much, they dun even look hot, buncit n gemuk, the bapuks r better looking n they dun even danced or shake watever there is to shake properly, they actually looked bored doing their routine werk n of coz, u will tend to get cheated, n all the girls (i dun really wanna call them prostitutes), will kip bugging n harassing you for tips. so overall, i din really wanna go.

bt the other 3 wanted to go, mainly bcoz mariam wants to watch wat she calls 'the p*p*k show' n get it over n done wif in her life, kak shima is curious (i tink) n nadleen wanted to do sumting else bsides shopping coz she has been there 4 times n all she did was shop n she tot she mite nvr go bangkok again so better do sumting new like watching thai girl show. well.... of coz before i got the feedbacks, i've always been curious and wanted to watch it myself... bt by now i m scared for our safety. i mean, come on, we r 4 very pretty ladies in a foreign land, speaking no foreign language, except me going "thao rai?". bt it's no wonder that they din even haf to do any persuasion, n i said ok.

so there we were on the third day. we were pretty much deciding whether we should or should not go. i told dem abt the feedbacks, n our main issue is mostly safety. before that, during the day, nadleen n me went ard asking abt patpong n thai girl show n the feedabck we got, oh my, almost like asking thme to strip naked! we got pretty much a reaction like this "NO! ITS BAD FOR THAI PEOPLE! DUN ASK ME! ONLY MEN GO! I DUN GO! I DUNNO! NO!" that's pretty frenly to me... so we concluded the best plan ever. UGLIFY OURSELVES! like that can happen, i mean we r juz too gorgeous! ;p

so we tried all pur best to look like half a baht, bt still ended up looking like a million baht. wateva. we tried. we hopped on a taxi at siam square, noting that 2 other taxis din want to ferry us there (nt sure coz of jam or coz of the stigma), bt we finally got into a taxi, where the driver is crazy. y? he laffed at us the moment we mentioned PATPONG.he kept looking at us from top to toe in a weird manner like he is looking at aliens. i dunno y. maybe he tot we r bapuks, we r lesbians, we muz be sum special foreign act for the thai girl show that nite reporting for werk, or we r plain crazy coz after all like i keep mentioning, we r 4 pretty ladies!

niwei, there was the jam. we got stuck like forever n kak shima believed it was a sign from THE ONE ABOVE, saying, GO HOME!!!! bt we reached n surprise, surprise, it isnt at all sleazy! in fact it look exactly like bangsar. (maybe at this point some of u mite say...bt bangsar cn be a bit sleazy...) bt u noe... it's nt like its sleazy sleazy not like red light district sleazy, even geylang nyer lorong is more sleazy!

so we hopped off the cab, trying to look ugly n so oh professional so that no one cn trick us or wat, n immediately, IMMEDIATELY, i repeat, a thai man approach us saying " YOU WANT TO WATCH SHOW?" wow! like we had a sign hanging us or the words "DESPERATELY IN NID TO WATCH SOME SADISTIC PORN" written all over our face. aniwei, as usual, we tried to look professional n said sumting like show? hm..lemme see wat u got. n then he took out a menu! A BLOODY MENU! the bloody menu contains sumtink like dis (mind you my eyes cldnt take it so i din really finish reading)

1. PUSSY WITH PINGPONG
2. PUSSY WITH EGGS
3. PUSSY BLOWING OUT CANDLES
4. PUSSY SMOKING
5. LESBIAN SEX

ETC....

IT REALLY WAS SUMTING LIKE DAT! so we asked " how much?" (damn! it felt like asking how much does a prostitute cost!) he said 300baht per person. dat's like $13.50. so instead of contemplating n deciding there where everyone could see us, hear us n noe that yes, we r going to watch the thai girl show, we decided to follow the man. (now, I feel like a prostitute!) at dis point, before i step up that flight of staircase(first of the pack), i sempat angkat tangan n doa! THE IRONY OF IT! i din care if anybody saw it coz i needed to pray to GOD.

so wen we reach the top, nadleen decided that we shouldnt waste time n start bargaining. mariam decided to follow her, while kak shima muka dh cuak, pucat giler. so i decided to stay wif kak shima, in case anything happen to her coz she was afraid, scared, having second thoughts and most importantly of all, she was the only one wearing short skirt. (wen i type it, it almost feel like describing how it feels like to be a prostitute for the first time. heheh ;p) n then we find out after all it was over, kak shima almost wanted to cry. by this time, we pretty much haf decided that we r going to watch the show after all, n nadleen is bargaining for a better price. 300 baht per person inclusive of free drinks. NO WAY WAS I GOING TO DRINK FROM A PLACE LIKE THAT! WLDNT NOE WHERE THE GLASS HAS BEEN! so nadleen says, we dun drink, give better price. so we asked for 1000 baht for all four of us, meaning 250 baht per person, wic is like $11.26. so they agreed. I asked the man, " is there many people already inside?" n he said "yes! there's a lot of people, many girls, so dun worry!" it was an assurance to me. YEAH RITE!!!!!!! wait till i come in! we asked if it has started, he said YES, OF COZ!

so we paid, and we went in. n oh my, wat a shock we had! there was NOBODY! IT WAS ONLY US! yes, there were lots of people in there bt the the people are the dancers and there were a lot of ladies in there as in the dancers are ladies! they surely noe how to twist n turn the words. we sat nearest to the door (i ges subconsciously, we wanted to run away thus the choice of seat near the door!) there were onstage, 4 girls holding the poles and moving to the music (i say moving to the music as i find that that's the best description coz i swear that they are not dancing to it!) dressed in (HAHA!DRESSED??!!!) in nuthing but black tongs and a star sticker sticked onto their nipples. the rest of the girls were all over the place, also dressed in black tongs and black bra. talking abt expressing oneself!

n watever my sis said its true. buncit, they din look like they enjoy doing it, nuthing much, ugle, badan tk power, power ones r the bapuks, we kinda get cheated, i got bored towards the end, n they did asked for tips.

bt seriously! watever happen in there was AMAZING! before this, i never thought much about the famous V! bt watching the thai girl show made me realise the things, the amazing things i must add, that the vagina can do! dun believe me? go watch the thai girl show urself!

at this point, many will say, y the long essay on ur blog if u r nvr going to give a glimpse of the vagina-world, rite? ok2. so u win. i will paint a picture for u curious pervetic vagina-maniac!

Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 12:49 PM

Friday, June 15, 2007

SAWADEEEEEEEEEEEE...KAPPPPPPPP!!!!

I FORGOT DAT I M FLYING OFF TO BANGKOK TMR MORNING AT 7.10 AM.

I HAVENT PACK. I M NT READY.

THERE'S SO MUCH TO DO. THERE'S SO LITTLE TIME.

BT WAT'S NEW HUH??

I'LL JUZ GRAB N LEAVE.

N DEN I CN SING

"I'VE PACKED MY BAG I'M READY TO GO, I'M LEAVING ON A JET PLANE DUNNO WEN I'LL B BACK AGAIN!" (well, technically i do noe wen i'll b coming back...)

I M GOING TO NJOY MYSELF.

EASE SUM TENSION.

DO A BIT OF SOUL SEARCHING.

N LOTS OF SHOPPING! (hehehehehehhe ;p)

I NID A BREAK DAT'S MORE THEN A KIT KAT

I NID THE REST TO B MY BEST

I M GOING TO BANGKOK!!!!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 5:19 PM

I M N AE

God!!!
Look at the title!
It almost doesn't make sense rite??
I know!!!

Bt dat's wat I am feeling rite now!
I M N AE!!!
FINALLY!!!

u noe y? coz i juz got my own cubicle, thx to the CCPE! (mental note to buy her lunch or sumting for her mere existence) it's the first day, n yes i do feel lonely... in fact, sumtimes ver lonely... bt thanks to windows media player, i have all my favourite artistes crooning to me!!! hahahah!

so.... how do i feel now dat i got my own cubicle? dunno... hopefully i cn be more focused now! bt yeah rite, those kids will nvr let me haf my peace... come to tink of it...i kinda miss them... (the key word here is kinda k!) haiz... in juz a few more days, this blissful peace will be over... haiz...
THE END IS NEAR!!!

Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 3:21 PM

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

What the Human Shield Said...

Teman,
sunyiku bukan berpanjangan,
bukan ku inginkan,
bukan niatku membingitkan.
Tak usahlah kau ubati,
apa yang mungkin kan ditelan waktu,
apa yg sering terjadi padaku,
seperti selalu.
Pedih di hati tak terasa lagi,
karna ia terus menerus menyapa diri.
Telah aku pelajari dan fahami,
ia semua dugaan Illahi...

Teman,
senyum riang wajahku ini
akan sentiasa menghiasi,
karna sememangnya hanya itu yg ku tahu,
tersenyum dlm tangis,
menangis dalam senyuman.
Jangan kau kisahkan resahku
karna ia tiada penghujungnya.
Terkadang aku perlu bersendirian dalam duniaku,
supaya aku bisa terus hidup seterusnya...

Teman,
aku syukuri kehadiranmu
yg senantiasa mendoakan kesejahteraanku.
Yang lebih membahagiakan,
Kau fahami keluh kesahku.
Perlu kau sadari,
aku sudah tidak berdaya bersedih lagi,
terima kasih atas kasih sayangmu,
sampai kita bertemu...

Sent: 5th June 2007
6pm

Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 12:01 PM

Beautiful Words from A Beautiful Person

Wahai sobat,
sunyimu membingitkan.
Diammu yang mungkinnya tetap
Disaluti halus dengan kepasrahan, aku ingin mengobati.

Wahai sobat,
sedihmu aku terasa.
Walau senyum riang wajah bisa terlihat,
Resah menziarahi.

Wahai sobat,
Harus kau tau,
Aku tetap mendoakan...

-received on 5th June 2007
16:41:17